Today was a bit of a disappointment. I woke up later than I would’ve liked (The Boy is working on a film at the moment, which means when he wakes up at 4:30am, I wake up at 4:30am, and my sleep is never quite the same after, which causes me to sleep in, stay up later than usual because I’m not tired, and the whole cycle starts again. Gonna try to get to bed at my usual midnight tonight come hell or high water! I need my normal sleep pattern back!), did my DailyBurn workout (more on that later), then did a bunch of stuff that I needed to do on a time crunch for HotPixel (you may have seen this HotPixel blog post earlier).
I was hoping to go to Orangetheory Fitness with Jen today, but that turned out to be a bust. Brentwood, where the L.A. location is, is just too far for me to get to via train/bus. I’d have to leave at 2:15PM to get there by 4. Meanwhile, I put feelers out to see if any of my other workout comadres would be interested in taking part in the free class (and giving me a lift), but everyone who’d be interested was busy today. And I just had too much work to do this morning to take 2 hours of travel time to go to Brentwood.
One day, I won’t be carless, and I’ll be able to laugh at all of this. At any rate, you should totally keep up with Jen’s Orangetheory Fitness 8-week Challenge over at her blog. She’s really inspiring! 🙂
Anyway, I stayed home working for most of the day. And I didn’t eat much, but I did eat ice cream and cookies at the end of the night. So while I didn’t have a lot of food, there was some unhealthiness at the end there. Argh.
Still, I did get my DailyBurn True Beginner workout in today – Strength and Cardio 1. Once again, I felt like, even though the weight isn’t coming off the way I’d like, I’m stronger and I don’t get winded the way I used to when I first started working out regularly.
Here’s another small victory. I realized a couple of days ago that, since I work out at home, I don’t have to bother with wearing a t-shirt (which always makes me too hot and sticks to me sometimes and hangs in my face other times and is uncomfortable when I’m trying to move) the way I would have to if I went to a gym. So, I started working out in my workout pants and my bra, which is SO much better. Not to mention, cooler. Ventilation is awesome.
But then I got to thinking, why do I “have” to wear a t-shirt at the gym? I mean, I see women working out in just sports bras (or really small tank tops) all the time. And then I realized that I’m kinda forced to work out with as many clothes on as possible because I’m fat. Obviously, no one forces me. But I know the looks I’d get if I strolled into the gym in just a sports bra. That kinda made me mad. So, I’m not allowed air flow because people will look at me funny? Argh. So, I decided to post a photo of me in my home workout attire for all of the internet to see. Because fuck that noise.
I know. I look fat. That’s ’cause I am fat. Covering up won’t make me look less fat. I’m trying to do something about it, but in the meantime – ventilation, yo. I won’t be strolling into any gyms like this any time soon – posting a photo is a lot different than walking into a room filled with staring eyes – but consider this my small, but mighty protest. Just because I’m a Big Girl doesn’t mean I have to be so deeply ashamed of what I look like. Especially when I’m working up a sweat doing something awesome for myself.