I've got this. :)

I’ve got this. 🙂

Just completed Day 4 of the DailyBurn True Beginner program. It was another Stability and Mobility 1 day. Worked up a sweat, and it felt good.

Today is actually the first day in a while that I didn’t have the pressure of Somewhere to Be, and I’m realizing that that makes a huge difference. Since I work from home, I’m “free” during the day, and so stuff gets planned (like trying to get to Orangetheory, or dentist/doctor appointments, or phone interviews for various outlets, or meetings, or even just hanging out with friends who are doing other things on the weekends) in the afternoons. Obviously, a lot of this can’t be helped, and a lot of it is work-related, but if there’s one thing that I’ve learned about myself over the past couple of years, it’s that I need routine and structure. This is not to say that this is my natural way of being – far from it – but that’s exactly why I need it. I do better – health-wise, financially, etc – when I stick to a routine, when I have a schedule. The problem is that I don’t always honor that or make it a priority. I’ll make appointments and plans that cut into the middle of my day, when I should really save certain things for the weekend, or suck it up and do them early (like dentist appointments, which lately I’ve scheduled for noon) so that I can get them out of the way and have the rest of my day uninterrupted.

Living with someone can make things difficult, too. The living room that I share with The Boy also doubles as my Office. My desk is out there, and it’s where I feel most comfortable working. I could work in the bedroom, but that would just mean sprawling on the bed, which would lead to the inevitable falling asleep. Usually, the living room being my office isn’t a problem. When The Boy isn’t working on a film, he tends to stay in the bedroom at his desk for most of the day, reading articles online, or playing some game or other. Obviously, the apartment belongs to both of us, but during the day, it’s nice to be able to have my “work area” to myself.

Lately, The Boy’s been working on a film, and when he gets home tired from 8-12 hours on a set, he likes to unwind on the couch watching TV. I would never begrudge him that, as my work is nowhere near as physically taxing as his is. But rather than trying to sit at my desk to work only to end up playing Tetris, because The Boy’s being in the room distracts me from doing much else, I need to get better at alternative plans, routines, schedules, and strategies. What happens instead is that I get frazzled when things aren’t exactly the way I need them to be, and end up doing nothing. 

So I’m going to spend at least some part of today figuring out alternatives, like:

1) Clearing out the mess in the kitchen so that I can actually sit at the kitchen table to work sometimes.
2) Setting aside work time outside my apartment in a local library.
3) Setting “work hours” during the day in the livingroom

Etc, etc, etc.

Also, I need to stop treating the fact that I work from home like I have “free time.” Just because I’m not going to an office doesn’t mean I don’t have a job that needs doing. There are Beacon articles to finish, HotPixel posts to post, pilot scripts to write, webseries to produce. It all goes back to treating my freelancing like the job it is. Regular hours, and making it a priority that can’t be moved around when someone wants to do something. This isn’t to say that I need to organize my days the way other people organize theirs. After all, I think that my flexible schedule allows me to take better care of myself by allowing me the time I need to exercise, meditate, and make myself meals that are healthier than what I’d get eating out. But I do need to prioritize myself and my work a little better. I need to create the structure that works for me and stick to it.

I’ll figure it out. That’s what life’s all about, right? 🙂

Anyway, here’s my Finish Screen for today:

TB Day 4 Screen

Wow, this whole post had very little to do with actually working out. 🙂 But that’s the thing. Stuff like working out, and your health and well-being are connected to the rest of your life. For so long I treated them like separate things, but how you run one part of your life is how you run all of them – so now, I’m trying to approach all aspects of my life with focus, discipline, love, and care. IT’S HARD. But I know it’ll be worth it once it becomes second nature.